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Finding Rest in His Presence

Yesterday was one of the heaviest days of my life. I felt like dragging a ton of weight behind me. Apart from being physically listless because of sleeping way too late, I was feeling emotionally dreary, unmotivated, and weary.

Stress was nagging at me even as I was getting ready to leave for the office. Our project for our OJT training is nowhere near finished. It was the time that I have considered the possibility of not completing the project. For a moment, I was a pessimist.

The first minutes inside of the office were worse. I felt like breaking down. I was frustrated. I prayed to the Lord to help me get through this. I didn’t feel comforted right away. I was too focused on the problem.

The office hours took the little life I had left for the day. It was tiring. It consumed the dregs of my cup, leaving me bone-tired.

As I was washing my clothes, I decided to find rest in the presence of our Lord. I played songs of worship and my heart cried out to Him. It was a wordless prayer composed only of silence and grievance. And at that moment, I was comforted by His presence. I was tearful, near crying, as I heard Him comforting me through the songs that were playing. I let myself to be drowned too much that I forgot that my Helper walks on water!

I was even more comforted when I read my devotion notebook. Rest can be found in Him!

But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

-Philippians 4:19

 

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The Lord’s Providence

Leviticus 25:18-21(KJV)

18 Wherefore ye shall do my statutes, and keep my judgments, and do them; and ye shall dwell in the land in safety.

19 And the land shall yield her fruit, and ye shall eat your fill, and dwell therein in safety.

20 And if ye shall say, What shall we eat the seventh year? behold, we shall not sow, nor gather in our increase:

21 Then I will command my blessing upon you in the sixth year, and it shall bring forth fruit for three years.

Sometimes the Lord requires us to do things that may compel us to leave our work or studies or our sources of living for a while. It may leave us having a hard time choosing whether to obey or not.

In Leviticus, the Lord was commanding the Israelites, not to sow the land in the seventh year for it shall be a sabbath of rest unto the land. Six years the people may sow their fields. Some of the people might have thought, “But what are we gonna eat?”. In verse 21, the Lord said: “I will command my blessing upon you in the sixth year, and it shall bring forth fruit for three years.” The blessing of the Lord will not only suffice for a year but for three years! That is how our Lord works and provides! He gives us more than what we long for if we choose to obey Him.

God is not requiring you to leave your work or stop your study for a whole year. But sometimes God is telling you to stop for a while and find rest in Him. Maybe He’s telling you to pause for a moment, leave your work and make time for Him, to do what He wants you to do.

He won’t leave us lacking because we chose Him over work or study. He’ll leave you having more than you could have asked.

Choose to obey the Lord now and be amazed by how He works!

 

 

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God’s Correction even in the Smallest Situations

It was a school day. I was more than prepared to present my assignment to our teacher. It was a small program and it appeared to be an easy task for me. As I was lined up with the other students for individual checking, I was confident. Maybe a little too confident. I felt that I could answer any question or that I can debug whatever the changes our instructor would make in the code. I didn’t feel nervous at all. There was pride in me. Small but present and lurking.

Adrenaline rush surged through me as I entered the department and apprpoached my instructor. She then changed some part of the program and let me debug it to its original state. A terrible thing happened. I couldn’t determine what was changed in the code. And it felt like I was being restrained from the ability to think at all. Because as I looked at my codes, I was confused. I had only a small recognition of the codes. The Lord was teaching me a lesson about pride. It felt like He made me dumb at that moment. I was immediately convicted!

I was running out of time. My teacher was already waiting to check my work and i have not figured it out yet. But the Lord is good! He gave me a second chance for my assignment. I couldn’t remember if i told my teacher to give me another shot but the next thing I know is that my instructor was giving me another chance to debug. She made a new change in the code. And before I looked into it, I prayed a short prayer. I apologized for acting boastful. And just like that, as I opened my eyes, I spotted the change in the code right away! It was like the Lord had given me the answers. God proved that I cannot boast about anything. He gives and takes away.

Pride has no place in a heart where Jesus lives!

 

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God’s Deliverance Even in the Smallest Situations

Have you ever been in a situation where it required you to choose between compromising or standing up alone with what’s right?

It was the laboratory day of our subject Statistics.  After the short discussion, our laboratory instructor gave us a set of problems to solve. My classmates were subtly communing about tricking our instructor into giving us the test as an assignment because they weren’t prepared for it mainly because they weren’t listening during discussions. And so they told her that we had to be dismissed early for the play that we had to watch and that we needed to go as immediately as possible and therefore, didn’t have the time to finish the problem set. They were pretty good actors and soon everybody picked up the treachery that was going on and they all played along. The play was still hours ahead and we would have plenty of time to go there even after the laboratory class.

 Someone, as in the devil, tried to convince me that there’s nothing that bad that was going on and that we could take the test home and everybody wins. But I was immediately convicted and I knew something had to be done. I was tensed and terrified. I could be talked about cruelly behind my back by my classmates or be bullied about what I was about to do. But I was running out of time. I prayed a short prayer submitting to God and trusting Him that He will deliver me throughout the possible outcomes.

They already convinced our instructor, few of my classmates were already outside the room, and most of my classmates were already headed for the door. Before the time ran out, I quickly headed straight to our instructor and told her the truth, that she was being tricked and that the play was still hours ahead. Before my classmates were completely out of the building, our instructor ordered them to go back inside. One of my classmates, a big guy, was revealingly shocked that someone had sabotaged their plan and asked who told our instructor the truth. Our instructor pointed me to him. I was scared that after class he would bully me. I heard whispers around the room. They were all disappointed about the destroyed plan.

She was mad at them and gave them a horrible consequence. She gave us the test and announced that everyone except me will get a 50% minus from the test. In other words, the highest score that they could get was 50% assuming that they could perfect the test.

I was the first to finish the test and our instructor thanked me for telling her the truth. I went outside. Some of my classmates finished after a while and I was expecting mockery and mean comments. But the Lord is good! They didn’t even ignore me. They talked to me as they normally do. The Lord delivered me and protected me from any harm.

It was a small situation but it planted a great impact on my heart. The Lord will never forsake you. When you stand alone for the truth, He stands with you. We are never alone.

I hope you find this testimony a blessing as I found it an absolute one. 🙂

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God’s Strength is Perfect for your Weaknesses

EXODUS
11 And Moses said unto God, Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh, and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?

12 And he said, Certainly I will be with thee; and this shall be a token unto thee, that I have sent thee: When thou hast brought forth the people out of Egypt, ye shall serve God upon this mountain.

We can sometimes find ourselves in the shoes of Moses. He was given a task by God and he felt inadequate. He felt that he was lacking something special to be able to do it. He might have thought, “It must’ve been a huge mistake. I can’t be leading Israel out of Egypt!”. He was commanded by God to talk to the people of Israel and to Pharaoh. Moses was not confident for he was not eloquent, slow of speech, and of a slow tongue (Exodus 4:10). And the Lord said,”Who hath made man’s mouth? Or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? Have I not the LORD?” (Exodus 4:11). And after that the Lord had commanded him, he was given a promise: “I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what thou shalt say” (Exodus 4:12)

The Lord may give us jobs that we aren’t ready for. He may put us in a situation that requires us to step out of our comfort zones. Like Moses, we may feel unready, inadequate, scared, deficient, shy, insecure, and uncertain. But God doesn’t just give commands without promises and assurance. Remember His words to Moses: “Certainly I will be with thee.”

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My Personal Testimony [Baptism of the Holy Spirit]

I was 10 years old when the Lord looked on me with love and saved me from my sins. It was on March 2008. And yesterday, February 4, 2018, the Lord baptized me with the Holy Spirit. Blessed be the name of the Lord!

I believed in the Baptism of the Holy Spirit but I was really doubtful that it could happen to me. Maybe to some people, but probably not to me. But I prayed yesterday at the altar longer than I have ever prayed before because I wanted to experience it. I was pestering the Lord even though many times someone was telling me to just get up , telling me that I wouldn’t receive anything and that it would be embarrassing and such a disappointment to pray for a long time without anything received. During my prayer, there were times that I felt hopeless because I felt most of the people were getting up. But every time i thought about standing up, a brother would say something like “Ask for the Holy Spirit and He will give it to you” and even twice he said “hayaan mo sila mag pray”. And I thought what if those messages was for me. So I decided to continue praying. I was stubborn and I said “I will receive it today.” I prayed that I will not get up not until I receive it. And then I was whispering something in a language that is not my own. And then I wasn’t whispering. I was saying words in a foreign language and a sister beside me was like answering to what I was saying. It seemed like we were talking. And I knew right then, I was baptized. The only word that has stuck to me was “sala” (pronounced sara) because I have said it twice consecutively. And as soon as i got my hands on my phone I searched for the meaning of the word “sala” until I got the result below. Then i remembered that in my prayer I mentioned that I would like to have the nature of sin inside me erased and my doubt of receiving the Baptism of the Holy Spirit eradicated. The Lord’s response was amazing: “vanished” and “gone away”!

I have waited for almost 10 years. I felt hopeless. But the Lord is faithful! Don’t lose hope! Keep on praying. God bless!

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All The Bright Places [Book Review]

Author: Jennifer Niven

It was a long time since a book really captured me to the point that I will choose to read over to sleep. And this book took me back to the good old days of reading. There was this night that I decided that I would just read till I get sleepy because I have an important thing to do the day after but I just found myself devouring the book chapter after chapter after chapter. I was determined to finish it in one night but unfortunately, I had to sleep even for a short time to get ready for the next day.

The story is an eye-opener itself for one of the important issues today: suicide. It is informative in a way that you get to see how suicidal people think, how some people look okay on the outside but are really broken on the inside. The book discussed the seriousness of suicide, how it is a thought that keeps on coming back into your mind or a thought at the end of the day.

The book was really easy to read in a way that you won’t look at your dictionary so much and that you won’t have a hard time understanding the scenes or the flow.  The pace is fine and I don’t remember getting bored while reading it. It was a fast read for me. I didn’t have a hard time to like the book.

I enjoyed the story and the characters. I liked how Finch is smart in a way that is not obvious. The most I liked about him is his weirdness but in a cool and nice way. He is outspoken and confident but not rude. For me, Finch passed as an ideal fictional guy. You know, the ones who are way better than real guys.  You know what I mean. I loved how Violet is popular and pretty but also nice and smart. I like them better when they were just starting to know each other but them being together is predictably inevitable. They certainly made each other a better person.

One of my favorite scenes is when Finch brought  Violet to the library and read her lines from a book of Dr. Seuss. And their adventure was a compilation of my favorite scenes.


THIS PARAGRAPH MIGHT BE A SPOILER TO YOU!!! As much as I like the book, it broke my heart so much. 😦 I cried as I was down to a few chapters. I thought it would be a happy ending but I was, oh, so wrong :'(((((( The last parts are just too painful and even as I remember it now I get sad. This book gave me the chance to feel how hurtful it is and how grievous it is to deal with that kind of death to a friend, so sudden and cruel. How hard it must be to be wanting them to stay, to be wanting that maybe you can be the reason for them to stay and yet thinking maybe you weren’t just enough. How hard it is to let go when you have so much to cling onto. The last chapters tore me.


I loved the book and I would totally recommend it to friends. Also, this is my first book from Jeniffer Niven. Now I have some expectations that I will like my next read from her.

Learnings:

  • Sometimes, by protecting ourselves or the ones we love, we forget to protect those who really need it.
  • As much as we can, we should not stop showing that we care and that we love the people we want to stay around.
  • You are beautiful and you deserve to be loved. You just have to wait for the right hearts to come around.
  • Let’s try to be more sensitive to those around us. They may seem okay but maybe, they need more than what you need.

For those who have suicidal thoughts or who are depressed, there is so much to life than sadness and emptiness. Don’t deprive yourself of the chance to be really happy. If you can’t find love with friends or families, you have Jesus. Life is so much better when spent with Him. Sending love, prayers, and positive thoughts to you! You are beautiful and you are loved more than how you can imagine!

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Posted in Journaling

Things I Include in my Journal

I started having a bullet journal in July 2017. I must say it helped me in a way that I didn’t know it could. It motivates me to be more productive (but lazy times still exist). It helps me to be more mindful of the things that should be done and helps me to organize things that I should think of instead of leaving them cluttered in my mind.

Here are things that I include in my journal:

  • Sleep Review

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I want to keep track of how much sleep I get and how late I sleep at night. I track this per month. You can choose to track anything that you want: habit, exercise, mood.

  • Weekly Review

I do this two ways:

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1. It can include a daily review so that you can be more specific on the day and date of an event/ accomplishment/ highlight/ small victory. It can be a mini diary if you want to write what you did in each day.

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2. It can be divided into parts: Weekly Victories and Highlights. In this way, you can just write the important happenings or the ones that you want to remember. Weekly Victories is for your achievements and the Highlights is for the moments that have stuck on you.

  • To Do List

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This will help you, of course, to keep track of what you have to do.

  • Gratitude List

List the things that you are thankful for from the smallest things to the big ones.

  • Random Thoughts section

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I like to write down my thoughts that make sense (i hope haha). Sometimes, I just want to be reminded of how I think and how I (should) perceive everything and life.

  • TBR (To Be Read) List

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I think it can help more in focusing to complete gradually my never-ending TBR list.

You can list the books and check or cross them out once you read them or you can draw a bookshelf like this one and color the book once you read it.

Read about my TBR list for 2018 by clicking here.

  • Monthly divider

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It includes the month, of course, and some motivational lines and Bible verses and events to be looked forward to.

  • List of movies or TV shows I want to watch

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You can identify when you will watch a certain movie or tv show.

  • Bible Reading Plan

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I have included a 365- day Bible reading plan in my journal this year. But I have taken the consideration that maybe some sets of chapters won’t be read in a day for some reason. I have to use a yellow highlighter to mark that I completed a day plan of reading in 2 or more days and to use a pink highlighter if I completed a day plan of reading exactly in just a day.

  • Targets or Goals for a certain period of time

Your targets this semester, your goals for the summer, even your target scores in exams or grades.

  • Pending Blog Posts and Blog Ideas

This helps you to not forget ideas for your blog and to remind you to write and work on your blog posts.

  • Other

 

You can dedicate a page full of Bible verses and motivational quotes to keep you going or some study tips to help you academically.

You can explore more and include more things in your journal. Get creative and productive!

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My TBR (To Be Read) list for 2018

    I decided to list all the books I want to read or reread for this year. I have 12 books listed. If my schedule is any lighter, I can read a book per month but I still need to survive my last semester of college, doing my On-the-Job training and final papers and stuff. But I will try to complete the list within a year! It doesn’t have to be in the following order. I am kind of tired of adventure and fantasies so the following list is probably composed only of  YA novels and a couple of Christian books.

  • All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven

I have one book down since I finished reading this last week. It was a really good one. I will probably write a review about this.

  • The Universe of Us by Lang Leav

This is my second read from Lang Leav. Most of the time, I can’t really relate to her writings but I appreciate her art. This is my current read.

  • Lullabies by Lang Leav
  • Love & Gelato by Jenna Evans Welch

I have a feeling that it will be a kind of cheesy love story but the cover is so cute I can’t resist to give it a shot.

  • Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

I am excited to read everything from Rainbow Rowell because I was never disappointed in her books.

  • Becoming a Woman of Purpose by Cynthia Heald

This will be a reread, actually. I am hoping to learn from this book again.

  • No & Me by Delphine de Vigan

I think I will like this book based on synopsis on the back cover.

  •  Forgotten God by Francis Chan

Another reread. I want to learn more from this book and see what it has for me for the second time.

  • Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins

This book almost didn’t make the list because it was part of a series and I don’t have the other two yet but I looked it up on the internet and it seems that it is safe to read it without the other books of the series yet.

  • Holding Up the Universe by Jennifer Niven

My second read from Jennifer Niven. Since I really liked reading All the Bright Places, I kind of have a pretty big expectation for this.

  • Carry On by Rainbow Rowell

Excited!!

  • One Hundred Names by Cecelia Ahern

One of my favorite authors is Cecelia Ahern. I was never disappointed with her work yet so I’m guessing this is a really good one.

If you have suggestions, comment it below. Maybe I can add them up to my next TBR list. 😉

 

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